Am I a freak?

Okay, I know you know that I know that I am a magnet to freaks? How in the world did this happen? I DO NOT KNOW. But maybe, just maybe, it's because I am a freak too.. Haha.. Should I show yah? erm.... Okay! Let's go! haha..


Things that I like:

1. Rainy days.. I like to watch how the rain drops from the sky to the ground. I like the way it touches the Earth and everything that is in it. I love it when it rains coz it's the best time to take a nap or read. The rain makes it cold that it actually puts my sweater,jacket and my blanket to work. It feels like the nature wants to communicate with me and wants to touch me, inside out. It's also the perfect time to cry because I too produce rain from my heart and if I cry in rain, no one would actually notice. In rain, I feel like I'm taking a shower which comforts me and makes me fresh! I can smell it moments before it starts to rain and I love it! It's like no other.

2. Candies and chocolates! I am not an experties but the taste of the sweetness makes me want to enjoy life and taste such happiness. I love it when it melts so softly and makes me to salivate more and ended up for more. My stomach also loves the company of them! To me, you've got to lick it all up until the end so you'll enjoy every taste of it and never miss a thing. It's a paradise!

3. Old books like the classis ones! Gosh! I love the smell and the look of it. It may be old but it's historical even if it's not. It reminds me of the old days way back before I was born to this world. It somehow makes me wonder what it's like to be on those eras where you don't have technology and you write on paper with neat handwritings using those old pen(which in Harry Potter's movies are using). Writing,reading and looking at it take me back to the golden age. It's so old and yet so valuable!

4. Rabbits.. They are such fragile animals. Their fur is so smooth while their behaviour is so tender. They're cute too. My old rabbit, Danielita have this some sort of connection with me. I know it sounds crazy but when I love something, I"d love it with all my heart that I do not know such feeling exist inside of me. They tend to be rather soft, a lil bit naughty but still has the need to be pampered,to be loved especially the bunnies. Ah, how I miss her...

5. The roads. I love them! Especially the old pavement in the street. It has historical values. It made me to think, have any leaders and successful people walked this road before me? Where does it take me if I follow it until the end? Those are questions that popped in my mind everytime I walk on the road. I like the condition of the road after the rain. It looks wet and so calm and peace. I know road leads to a journey which no one will know. That's why I love the roads. In highway, I'd put on my headphones and hear to the music playing while watching the cars passed beyond me and the scenery that comes with every road there is.

6. Mind. Who doesn't have one,right? I mean, it's the place where people think. And I know this sounds so NOT normal but I wish I can dive into every people's mind. Every moment passed, I wonder what are people around me thinking, what are their thoughts are they thinking exactly like what I am thinking? Human's mind are spectacular. It's amazing. It's the centre of the head.We differ what is good and bad there. We criticise people in it. It's our secret place where no one can read or hear us out. It's amazing!

7. L.O.V.E. I want to experience love coz I lack of it. I am capable of loving someone without conditions and love the a person whole-heartedly. I want to feel it. I wanna feel my heart feels ache and seems like blowing up from too much capacity of love that it can't bear no more. Is love really special like what I read in novels? Or that just a bull that people write from their fantasy and not reality-based? Is there such thing as true love? Love not for the sake of your lust, not for the intention of *uc*ing people off and defenitely not for the future sake(money). Is there something so honour, sincere and beautiful like that? Tell me World. Is there anything like that? If so, I want to find one. I'll hold back until I find my other half,my true lover. He would love me without conditions, he who could communicates well with me, he who sees things I hide from others, he who sees my bad habits as a unique feature, he who wouldn't touch me until we get married, he who would not betray me physically,mentally and emotionally, he who find me attractive when I am not. Is there such guy for me? If I am destined to meet with him and love is the one that connect us then I'd wait. I'll wait till he shows up. I'll wait till my death arrives. For I would not betray his patience for longing to meet me too.

8. Currency. I love money, who doesn't? It's not coz it enables me to buy stuff but I want to see the creativeness of each country in producing the money. I prefer coins because it's not paper(see? it doesn't make any sense). Everytime any relatives of mine visit foreign country I'd ask them to just bring me a coin. I love to collect them and at the end of the day, I'd compare all of them to see how different it is Malaysia from each country. My dream is to travel all around the world right so that's why the coins are important to me. It inspire me to achieve my dreams which I day I hope will come true. If I am not capable of doing so then it is enough to travel just by their coins. Haha..

9. Scenery. Ouh I love them! Their beauty is undescribable. Nothing can be compared to the Mighty's creation. Everytime I look at the sunset or even the blue sky, there's an odd feeling of touched. I feel like crying because I cannot comprehend the feeling of being able to see and enjoy such view. It's the thing that got me to poetry. You see, because I was unable to secribe what I saw as the way I could say, so I write. I am that kind of person. I cannot say what I feels and thus I write it all down..


Haha.. See what I mean? So, do you think I am a freak because I fascinate these stuff? Hehe.. Up to you to decide but I think it's normal, well at least for me! Hehe. Okay, you know you despise me, Don't miszed me!
T.A

Ishk!

Hey, I'm at home. The hols are starting. Yeah, although this means I'll have my breaks but it's quite boring.

For starters, why everytime someone want to talk about me she would interrupt us and change the subject to him? Urgh! I don't know what's happening. It's either her habbit of hers or just her.. I'm not sure which one it is. Yeah, she's always so proud of him that she's constantly talking about him. I rarely hear stories about me from her lips. All I keep hearing is his name. All the good stuff would be credited to him. So what am I? A loser? Urgh! NOT FAIR ok! NOT FAIR!