Hey people!
So the recent Tuesday, I was excited to have my FIRST ETHOS MEETING!
tURNED out, I was elected as the Secretary. Thank you NUR ANISSA
BT ABD AZIS! for getting me back. But seriously, all the congrats
make me feel more horrible by the second.
Because many students escaped the meeting, therefore the people
left there were my friends and a bunch of my seniors who know me.
I never thought they would vote for me. They don't know me. I'm NOT
HARDWORKING, RELIABLE OR DO I HAVE ANY EXPERIENCE IN SUCH
A BIG CLUB. ETHOS is a BIG responsibility. I don't know if I can live
up to the expectation. Okay, this is karma. Coz I nominated AJ for the
president title. I thought people would vote him as the Vice President
instead of the Mr. President himself. SORRY AJ! :)
nIeSsA, I don't blame you. Seriously. Yes, you nominated me but
there were many other hands who voted for me as well. It's just that,
I don't think I deserve
the honour. I wanted to learn first instead of leading. But it has already
happened and we can't change the past.
I don't think I'm worth the credit and congrats. Sorry people.
But, we'll see how it goes right? I'll try my best though. MUHYI
said he voted for me because he trusts me. The ONLY PROBLEM is
that I DON'T trust myself.
It's not like I am not grateful or do I hate it, but it's just that...
Well, you know... I'm scared of letting people down. Until now,
I still don't understand why they voted for me. Maybe they just raised
their hands to get it over with? That's the saddest part of it.
IN CONCLUSION, I'll work very hard to live up to the expectation.
Still, there's the voice that keeps whispering at me that says,
"They didn't choose you because they trust you to do well."
And I still DOUBT my decision of keeping it a secret from my family.
*sigh* fuhhhh.........
