No regrets!

SAF! SAF! SAF! That's what been going on in my mind for the whole week. I coudn't stop thinking bout it, SERIOUSLY! But then came a sad news... Some of mr friends and I were instructed to go to the Debate Workshop instead. We were bound to do. Then I felt really jealous for my friends whom chose to go to the Larian SAF. I even told them to represent us by achieving at least one point for our faculty. Then the day came....

That morning I was supposed to wake up early by I woke up late. My heart didn't feel right. Like something was missing. All week I was torn inside out about two things in life I love the most, Debate and SAF. Then I re-read a text message Lady D gave to me. She said she'll be going to the Larian SAF instead. Then I knew it! I changed my mind and called GG. Both of us agreed that we REALLY100x wanted to go to the SAF. Then, we quickly changed up and waited downstairs for other friends. With a wide smile in our faces and enthusiasm firing in our soul, we greeted our friends. Most of them asked us why aren't we on our way to the Debate thingy. With smile we replied, "We are going to SAF! and that's it!" Well, it sounded something like that. Haha! When we arrived, we registered our name and warm up a lil bit as we were getting rusty. Of course we took many pictures and we happily posed for every click! Heee..

Then we were asked to go to the Padang Kawad. I was tying my shoe when the whistle were blown. Luckily I managed to finish it quickly and then began to ran. Thankfully I wasn't wounded. All of us got separated. At first I ran side-by-side with Rose but then she was lost out of sight and I ran sololy. It was tiring! Of course because of the non-stop mountain climbing. Though I was out of breath but I never gave up. When I reached the entrance gate, I ran along side with a senior from Sports Rec faculty, whom are our faculty's rival. Running besides him created a fire in me to help me keep on running. No matter what, I won't lose to myself! After a while I met up with Ezzasygs. Together both of us finished the race until the end and contributed one point to ou faculty! We supported each other along the way and boosting each others' confidence. Then we met up with some of our friends there. It felt good. I didn't have the feeling of regret AT ALL! Luckily the faculty provided us with some mineral waters and foods. It was an experience of no regret!

After that, we've decided to go to Sunway Piramid to do some S-H-O-P-P-I-N-G!! Haha.. We took the KTM and a mini bus. Though I was tired but still I wanted to enjoy the day no matter what. Whoa, I gotta tell you! GG was like a JUMPER. I mean, one minute she was there checking out some clothes and one second after that she's already at the counter paying the clothes. Great huh? Haha.. At least I was amazed. Then we hit Carls Junior for some food. The fries was ABSOLUTELY GREAT! You should try it out! It was on the house coz a friend of ours used to work there. So thank you Carls Junior and Allah for the delicious meal..! It's delicious coz it's free..! Haha,juz kiddin! It was fantastic okay. After a long search my friends and I finally found what we've been looking for at ROMP. It was craze! I felt like buying the whole store. There were discounts everywhere not mentioned all the sales! Whoa! Sunway Piramid is the place to shop! I found my cardigan there at ROMP. Then in the evening I spent the day having dinner at Secret Recipe. I did enjoy the cake. It was SUPERLICIOUS! But I was too full to eat anything else. Then my family dropped me off at Mawar. Coz I was superbly tired I fell asleep in the car. I was then safe and sound at Mawar. My friends was heading to McD to do some assignments. Poor them. But, NO REGRETS!

I enjoyed every minute of it! NO REGRETS! Heee

Friends, here we go!

It's safe to say that you all are my friends. There are 26 people in my class with 20 gurls and 6 guys. They are; Papi, Mummy, Ummi, Neighbour, Chegu, Dai, Kak Ngah, Ezza Syg S, TJ, Bell, Al, Fei2, Rabi, Kak Long, GG, Naniey, Mas, Rosmah aka Adek Chantek, Yan, Rose, Bang Long, Lee la Lola, Bro Megat, Ben, Bro Anas and me! Hee.. Sorry guys and gurls for revealing this here but I've gotta express myself or I won't be able to change for the better...

Everyone here is unique and different. Sometimes we'd even think alike. I have NEVER ever meet anyone with the same passion as I have. And somehow, I can connect to you all from the bottom of my heart. You're there in time of needs and we are walking through tears and laughters. My heart sober thinking we'd be separated the next sem. Anyway, let us enjoy the time being. In order for me not to forget you all, I'll write all about it in here. Sorry if what I'm about to say would hurt you or if it's untrue. But friends, here we go.

10 THINGS I'LL REMEMBER ABOUT YOU:
1. You're PROTECTIVE.
2. You DO CARE.
3. You're in time of need.
4. You see things the way that I do.
5. You make a better me.
6. You are always advising and guiding me.
7. You always teach me new things.
8. You drive me to the right path.
9.You make me laugh and smile.
10.You make me love you.


HOW UNIQUE AND DIFFERENT YOU ARE:
Pape Iz: Responsible, talented in singing and dancing, sporting and reliable.
Mummy: Somehow, you act like a mother to us with your warmth. There's something about you
that makes everyone comfy around you.
Ummi: You're sooo sweet! Haha. In the future I know you'll be a great Ummi! heee..
Neighbour: Spontaneous,funny and creative. Love it when you present certain topic. Especially
the 'My Grandmother' part. Haha. You're a great roommate too!
Chegu: Ha! You're a true teacher! You have that aura that tell us you'll be a fantastic teacher
someday. Trust me.
Kak Ngah: You too are talented in drawing and sketching the manga stuff. Love to mess with
yah.. Hee. Rajin k kamu.
Dai: Ha adik bongsu! You're so innocent but I'm glad coz you're not exposed to bad things in this
life. Keep bein cool ok.
Ezza Syg S: Hehe.. relax, im juz kiddin! You're both funny and cool. Keep it real! You're
hardworking, glad I have a groupmate like you...! Heee.
TJ: This is a true,most talented and caring teacher! Hati die baek gler n pnd wat explanation.
TJ, u rock!
Bell: Haha.. Love her slangs..! I cant resist her 'er' at the end of every words.. SO cool!!!
Al: Ini mmg sengal gler lah.. Haha, having you around makes me wanna burst in laugh. Keji ye
kamu ambil gamba saye tgh aerobik aritu..HAHA. I'll get my revenge soon. Neway, have
some confidence! Muke kau ayu n matured ok, xmcm aku..Haha
Fei2: You're really talented in fashion business and you are very charismatic indeed. Don't forget with the fact that you can be 'high' with too much sugar..haha Sugar Free!
Rabi: Ya Allah! Ko memang BAPAK PUAKA lah.haha. Sehari xsah kalo ko x mengeji aku k.
But, when we cooperate, we can accomplish so many great things together. Yela2 aku
ngaku. Mmg best ko ade sbb dgn ko jer aku leh mengeji..haha
Kak Long: Waa.. Ini mmg best! Although you're an only child but you have what it takes to be
a Kak Long and you're doing great so far! You're a debater and very charismatic.
GG: Zombie who likes to bite ppl. But you're really cool,smart,charismatic and fun! Haha. Cant
say bad things bout yah coz you'll do XOXO to me or even bite me..heee
Naniey: Wah! MMG org yg ANTI-GAGAK! haha.. ko nie klakar gle larh.. Kwn yg best! Hee.
Mas: WOW! Mmg sahabt sejati saye! Haha.. Xreti nk control dr menjerit d mana2 je, sengal2 tp
gempak kot! heee..
Rosmah aka Adek Chantek: Astagh.. Haha.. Keji juge ye makhluk Tuhan ini. Haha. Tp maintain
cool ye. Sgt sporting dan suke gaduh dgn Lee. Haha
Yan: Nampak jer biase tp agak ganas ye die. Muke die muke toilet.Haha! Sgt rajin,mmg rajin!
Rose: Ha,ni lg larh. Ganas bapak tp nk bergayut pon xbertempat. Toilet pon jd lah..haha.
Outspoken(the very maa..)
Bang Long: Waa.. Gagah perkasa k! He's the MAN! Hee.. rapat ngn Al.
Lee: SUke tido dlm klas, sporting, bengong ok and suke ckp meleret! Haha
Ben: Wawawa..Suke dgr die bercerita. Agak tggi and smart. Kinda popular among gurls.HAha
Anas: Haha..bro anas! Smiley person, suke sebut 'Ye ke?"-which annoy me very much! I'm close
to him . He's like a bro to me.
Bro Megat: Haha. Best ngn die..! Memang abg saye yg cool and hiphop. Suke pkai suar tido Rabi
and baju labuh (xsuke saye!). The beatboxer kot.Hee.. Sape nak die kne lalu interbiu
dgn adik n kkak die dlu ye..



Sorry if I offended yah. You're all so cool and fun to be around with! All are unique and special in your own way. Very talented and we often think alike. You know what they say "Great minds think alike". I've got to admit. Ever since I've been with you guys, there's just a lot of things that I can learn from each and everyone of you. Thanks for letting me to blend in and be who I am. I am now learning to be more expressive with how I feel. You're teaching me new stuffs everyday about relationship,life, religion and many more! I can feel now that I am becoming a better person and somehow my fear of XOXO are now starting to fade away. Help me more okay. Correct me if I'm wrong, Hold me when I'm about to fall, Guide me on how to be strong inside out and teach me things beyond my comprehension. So friends, here we go! That is all . Until next time, love you guys. Salam... -Mind the spelling. The keyboard is so 'SUPERB'..

What's The Matter?

Hurm.. Public transport? What do I think of it? Well, most of my horrifying experience is when I'm on the public transport. Twice actually but if added up to the latest experience I had this evening three time. Urgh.. Why do I always experience 'things' from perv guys. Am I magnet to freaks?? Aaaa!!! What's the matter with them?!





What's the matter? That's the question my classmates kept on asking me on that particular day. Not only that but also one of the seniors asked me if I'm alright. Even in the evening I found out that most of my friends were asking about me. In the morning I was bugged by a perv. I was afraid. And so I kept quiet that morning. After I told some of them about it, I pretended to smile and I even tried my best to think that everything was okay. Then when everyone was distracted I ran out of the class pretending to have a stomach ache. I don't know why but I broke down and cry in the toilet. I didn't know any tears would flow out of my eyes. When I was done, I felt better. I didn't want to involve my friends because I would only burden them. I do not have the heart to do that to them. Hurm..





Last week ( I think), a friend of mine was sick when we had finished our workshop. I pitied her. She threw up and my friends and I helped her way through the time. It happened at the bus stop. I already noticed her silence since we depart from the faculty. I knew something was wrong with the hot weather and I remembered her saying that she was so full. After that she suddenly looked pale and sick and so we asked what's wrong? Then, Lady D and I went to the nearest bus station to get some cabs but none were available. Then we decided to call them and luckily we managed to get two. Then we assisted her to her room and we accompanied her until her roommate came back. During that time we put some towels on her head and prepared a Panadol besides her bed. We thought her roomates would only be back at night but luckily one of her roommates came back about half an hour later. Then we left her there. That night my sick friend,GG, texted us and said that she's okay for now. Earlier another friend, Puaka dropped by and give a porridge. Anyway, all of us were glad that she's okay now.. Hee.. Alhamdullillah.





Lately, I am also not feeling well. I don't know why or how but it has been twice since I been having a really crazy headache. I have never felt that before. It's been bugging me. When I read an article on the topic 'Stress', I found out that I am having some of the symptoms of stress that could be developed to serious mental illness. I am sometimes more moody and aren't calm when coping with problems encountered. Argh! What's the matter?





Wow. Drama, drama, drama! Why does this has to happened to me? What's the matter? Hurm.. I haven't really solved the problems I have right now, but one more problem came. Urgh! Why? Huhu.. I am so mad at this one person. What's the matter with that person?! At first I had reconsidered about the thought of our relationship. I wanted to give the person a chance but he screwed it up by making it public. What the....! Urgh.. Another person, so shy. What's the matter! Urgh.. We're just friends.. Haha.. I want to stay solo this semester. My siblings have warned me not to have scandals here and there. Haha. They've got eyes and ears everywhere. Hoho.. I still haven't move on from my last crush. Ah! How I wish I'd meet him for one last time. Haha.. My crush? Hehe.. I just like to look at him from far away coz I like to look at his face. Haha.. It's nothing serious. Wawawa.. What's the matter? Ngeh3...





So............... WHAT'S THE MATTER???

OMG!!!

Last Friday, other Teslians and I went to the theatre at KLPAC for the 'Short and Sweet' Dance. The faculty sponsored half of the ticket price. It was cheap and an opportunity of a life time. So, my friends and I decided to go for it. After class, we rushed back to college. A friend of mine(TQ!) stopped by to check out a suitable cloth for the big night. After we went through all of my clothes in the beg and closet, we agreed to one. The green jacket and the white t-shirt. All of us headed to the bus stop at 5pm but like hell we waited for the taxis as none were there. How great is that? I mean, we dressed up well, put some make up on our faces but suffered out in the desert? I was sweating like Pi*! We tried calling some taxis but only one could make it. So the first four or five took it but I stayed coz only I have some of the numbers. We were supposed to be there before 6 pm but the clock is ticking and it's already near 6. So, we decided to stuff ourselves in the bus though it was crowded. Again,as usual, we had to stand in front and hold on to whatever was there. The journey was near but it felt long. When we arrived at Seksyen 2, luckily there was some taxis around. Thanks to God and optimism! Amin. Upon arrival, we rushed there. I wanted to run but some of us were wearing wedges so I apologise, again for making it worse. When we finally arrived where the bus were waiting, two friends greeted us with excitement. They were not happy coz we were left behind. Nope, it's not your fault. What can we do, right? It turned out to be, we weren't the last to arrive. There were also some other late comers who came half an hour after us. Though, we apologised and explained why we were late. The bus departed around 7 pm or so, then we started our journey. All of the guys have arrived. It's the first time we are beaten by the guys. Haha. Anyway, it didn't felt long coz we spent the day snatching pictures, talking and joking around. When we arrived with empty stomach, we were eager to find food! But truth be told, there were only can drinks and snacks available. Huhu. Hey, anything is better than nothing okay. 20 minutes later, we were called to be seated. I sat on the highest seat. Though it was a lil bit far but I could see it all from up there. On the seat were a piece of paper of evaluation of the short stories. We just had to choose the best and of course as a UiTM's student and a junior of Teslian, I would defenitely support my senior whom are competing! haha. Before we started, we were briefed a bit. I couldn't hear her all the way up from my seat. All of the acting were great but OH MY GOD! IT WAS 18SX!!! When we were exposed to such things, I just looked terrifiedly at my friends with disbelieving look coz I never thought it'd be like this. OMG! It goes like that again and again and again! My eyes, ears and mind have been polluted with such un-pure things! OMG! OMG! OMG! Seriously, the second story was the most unforgivable scene! Then there's this play when I had to covered my eyes from seeing two people from the same sex kissing. Although it wasn't real as been said by one of my senior, but still. It was disgusting. I couldn't get the image out of my head! Seriously, if tomorrow's theatre going to be like that, I'd be sooo pissed off! Yeah, I know I'm going to be 18 this year but I'm still 17 and even if I'm 18, I'd never want to see such thing.. Urgh. But apart from that, it was A-W-E-S-O-M-E! All of the plays were great but some I couldn't really understand what they're trying to say. After it was finished, we took some pictures again and then went straight back to our college. It was 12 am and my stomach is still rebelling. Earlier, a friend heard my stomach crying for food. It was so embarrassing! So as suggested, I went and buy a Maggi from another friend. I ate that and took some biscuits, drank Crysanthemum's tea and went straight to bed. and OMG! It was fun and tiring.

What The FOOD??!!!

Hey.. I wanna talk about something that's been bothering me this past two days. I just find out that all of my classmates and I would not be in the same class next year. Ow it hurts so much. I kinda fret about it and then I found out that I will get into another class next sem,which is Group A. Urgh! Adults.. What do they know about us huh? Yes they said that they was a teen once but thngs changed and people are really not the same so our situation is TOTALLY different. Why do they always think that they are ALWAYS RIGHT and we are always WRONG?! What the FOOD?!! They always think and do according to their own free will without considering our feelings and they always seem to think they are doing what's best for us when in truth they are making it worse. Not only it's hectic lo live a life in our shoe with our unreasonable schedule and the buses and the transport and all. Don't forget the assignments, homeworks and studying we need to do..! Urgh.. I know,I know.. That's life. But we're teenagers. For Goodness sakes give us some break will yah! The thought that all of us would be parted makes my heart breaks. I mean, c'mon! Our class have bonded well like we've known each other for a long time when we actually just started to be friends about two months ago. It's a class which I have never experienced before. We are really enjoying each other companion, loyalty and kindness. Almost evrywhere we go, you could see major of us there. We always stick together no matter what and we're really close to each other. Now, knowing the sad news, I couldn't help but to feel miserable. What do adults know about all of the sufferings we're going through? Yes they know our schedule is packed but they can't really feel unless they're in our shoes, I mean in our REAL SHOES. Then maybe they'd see the world through our point of view. Anyway, some people dislikes us. I think they're jealous coz we're really close while they are in groups and discriminating types of student. Imagine if the next sem I's be in the same class as they are, only God know what will happen. I know I won't be liked like I am now while among my classmates or our one big happy family. They might even alienate us especially me who like to make chaos and disturb people while making noises. Huhu.. I know.. I'm sooooo sad right now. Yeah,I know not all of us would be studying in the same course or even is the same class in Degree program but at least with all of the things we're going through, cut us some slacks will yah? We're TEENAGERS for Godsakes. When the time comes, we'll know it's time to say goodbye but for now, please don't. Don't take away the precious time we have left to spend with each other. I feel like crying.. Hukhuk.. Seriuosly.. I 'm soo sad. Whenever I think of this, I' be so upset and miserable that I amnot enthusiast as I was before. It feels like shit. YA ALLAH! WHY? Why are the adults so mean?! Why are they doing this to us? Really MOTHER FATHER tol.. humph. But one thing for sure, I'll miss all of you. It's really a bummer and heartache but what can we do. The decision is up to the 'adults', we're only teenagers. We don't deserve to do anything but to follow what the adults say. humph. As if you're an adult after all.