Can you believe it? Haha! Neither can I!

Heyya people, I'm back. Only this time, I've got some news.

Okay, firstly, I just want to say thank you to all of you who had made one of my wishes come true. Years ago, I often prayed and tried hard to change who I am. Everyday of my life, I have been struggling with deep thought of my own and those things around me were unbearable. I tried everything but none worked. It only made worse when I did gave up on myself at some point there. Looking back, I am glad and very grateful to accomplish things I thought were impossible. I guess, I didn't see the whole situation completely enough and I used to jump on the first conclusion I had in mind.

Not to accuse anyone or even pointing fingers at others but I think it has something to do with me mixing with people of my own. The new acquaintances I made this year are very much dearest to me. They dare to look into my eyes, kick down the barriers I made within myself and taught me things no one else would too shy to even think about. I shall not say who are these people because you out of all people should know it's you. My new friends I made these past few months are more grown-up, more mature and are independent, of course. Each has their own story to tell, everyone have their dreams upholding in their heart and all of course have fears they have to conquer before our time has come to depart.

I am proud to say that I have successfully changed. Yes, that is one of my goals since last two years. I was very immature, lack of self-confidence and not surprisingly a spoilt brat back then. Can't say I have totally changed but I did, a bit. My experience as a college student has taught me that, being friends with those people has made me to think and time passes to cure all of my absence of heart. Slowly, I am beginning to feel things whole-heartedly. I was a coward, I was constantly afraid of getting hurt, physically and mentally and I am still now but that feeling is starting to fade away slowly. And when hope was lost for me ,I gave up. But not anymore! My closed ones were hurt by that monster of me. But now, now I stand tall among the crowd. I have drop the feeling of insecure that surrounded me. I gained trust and am giving them all back to the world! My level of confidence is higher than it was before. I can now see situations more clearly. It is as though I didn't have to wear a spectacles or even a contanct lens to see things as sharp as an eagle's eyes.

I am changing, slowly. The progressions I made was beyond words that no single soul can utter right now. Right now, I don't really care what people think of me. I don't want people to take me for granted anymore. I shouldn't be afraid to try new things and meet new people anymore. I have never realised I would have come this far on my journey of becoming the better me. I know some of my friends wouldn't like these changes but know what? I don't care! I am who I'm supposed to be, I am where I am. I have fought inside out with all the strength I never thought I possess and now the world will see the new and better me. Can you believe it? Haha! Neither can I!