Numb

I don't know how or what to feel.

I can't put my feelings in mere words.

I mustn't cry but that's so hard to do.

I know; everyday people come and go away.

But it's all so sudden.

I'm choked.

I wanna cry.

But I wanna smile and laugh too, you know.

It's guilt.

Feels wrong to go on; pretending like nothing happened.

I need someone to talk to.

Someone to share my feelings with.

An arm to cry on.

But nobody hears me weeping, inside.

No one would understand.

Even I don't.

My eyes see that 3 critical days.

They did come and were blown away.

But I still feel what I felt then.

I still weep like I wept then.

I am still grieving.

My mind is trying its best to comprehend this event.

I can't focus.

I can't move my muscle.

I can't really do a thing.

I can't really say anything.

I am paralyzed.

I am weak.

I am numb.